I have come to realize that apologies don’t mean anything to me anymore. People, sometimes, think that all they want to hear is an apology from the person who hurt them or did something wrong that upset them. But what I think of an apology is that it’s just a lie people tell that they think it might make a difference or show their care or love; on the other hand, it is not, even if it was so sincere and came out carrying a lot of feelings and emotions towards that person you hurt, you actually did it all by yourself with no one pushing you to do it. So now what I care about the most is what comes after an apology : would you do it again ? Would you hurt me again with the same thing ? Would you change ? Would you think the next time you are about to do it and take a step back ? Would you stop apologizing ?
Think
People always say ” think before you open your mouth. ” What if we didn’t ? what if we just say everything we want to get out of our system ? I think when you are around your true friends you don’t actually have to think of anything, you just open your mouth and let the words come out even if they will hurt like a shot to the heart but you have to say it cause all takes to be a true friend is when you don’t lie, you don’t sugar-coat the truth, you don’t hide things. How could you be a true friend if you thought before you talk ? Let me explain it in another way, if you are a true friend, you shouldn’t try to be someone else just for the sake of fitting in and choosing the perfect words to be liked or loved, cause by time your true colors will be revealed and they will see what you truly are and then maybe they won’t like it when you are blunt and honest and that’s when they won’t like you. That’s when you will realize that they are not your true friends cause they don’t accept you as you are or as you want to be. That’s why I believe that you have to be 100% yourself infront of anyone so you could know who you are picking up to add them on your true friends list. At this time of my life, I don’t want to think before I talk anymore, I don’t have the energy to think before I open my mouth, I just don’t. And I don’t mind that whoever doesn’t like my honesty could just leave. That is how I picture my peace of mind and peace in my life. Honesty. Honestly.
Unfair
this is so unfair , the way things have to change , the way people leave after they gave us hope to stand by our side forever , this is so unfair to watch them acting and making us cry , this is so unfair that i believe in those stories , those fairy tails , i hate the way things are slipping away so fast , and leaving me with memories my whole life , JUST MEMORIES , JUST MEMORIES !
Choice
Between
Words, sentences, feelings, pain and confession have two things in common they can hurt and kill or change things for the best, just when we use them the right way, in the right moment, for the right reason. I believe words can always make a difference in others’ lives. Sentences have tons of meanings that every one of them count. Feelings these are what we’re living with, honest feelings these are what we’re looking for, to give and get them. Pain sometimes we expect it and find joy, but it hurts the most when you expect joy and find pain. And sometimes we accept to feel pain cause we underestimate ourselves and what we really deserve so we look for pain cause we see that we don’t deserve joy and happiness and sometimes regret them when we get them. When you love someone you try as hard as you can to be honest with this person, no matter how painful and hard and deadly this confession would be, you would say it just to be the best you could be. But sometimes confession can be as sweet as ever, like when you think to express your love for someone. Everything has it’s good and bad side, and that’s when our role comes in this life to choose between good or bad, accept or change, pain or joy, regret or learn, watch or act, walk or stay, fight or give up and love or hate. Be yourself and you will always choose the right thing.
Do you ?
Do you ever wished for something you already have it, or afraid of something you already did it, did you ever got scared of getting hurt again ? When you think of love you see it something weird ? Or can’t understand it ? Did love ever disappoint you ! When you thought you’re living your best moments in love and it turned out to be something else, and happiness was just the wrong name of it ! After all those wrong turns and decisions to stop, did you really stop ? Did you die ? No ! Because this is life, this is how it’s always going to be ! Wrong turns, bad decisions, false names, imagination, but someday you will find your reality, someday the right turn will come to you, the good decisions will be made, the best names will introduce themselves, so don’t be scared you will find your best moments maybe you won’t realize them while they’re happening but you will realize them soon enough to keep them as the good memories, someday you will be satisfied and in love, cause what you’ve been waiting for came into your life ! Words and only words can always make a difference 🙂
Future
I know what happened yesterday, last week, last year ! I have memories, but I have faith too ! I know nothing about tomorrow, or next week or next year ! And I don’t want to know, and if you know don’t tell me, cause I want to live it for the first time like a surprise, something I didn’t know that it’s going to happen something that will make a change, let me feel it, let me know it’s something new, I want to know how does it feel without him, how pain is going to hurt next time, or will going to be any pain that hurts like before, or I didn’t see what pain and hurt really mean yet, or maybe what’s coming is going to be about a smile turning to a laugh, happiness reaching joy, and love along the way, maybe he will be there, maybe someone else, maybe better maybe worse, maybe someone I don’t know, maybe someone I knew for so long and it’s time to change what he means to me, maybe she is going to be closer to me than ever, maybe she will be far away but in touch and we will still have that thing that we promised that we won’t destroy it over time and distance. And they will be there too supporting me like they have always did, and always will, having faith, a look of pride, with tears in their eyes and smile from their heart clapping for me with the feeling of success cause they’re the reason I’m here standing wherever I’m, this is life, and this is how we’re going to live it happily ? No I’m not sure. What I’m sure of and believe in and living for is the happy ending waiting for me right over there at the other end of the line 🙂
Letters
I read the letters I wrote him, and I cried, it hurts to read them and remember how we used to be, and remember that he didn’t write me like I did, he didn’t say anything like the things I said, I remember when I was writing him the anniversary letter I wasn’t happy yet I could still say all the right words and how much I love him and how much he made me happy sometimes. Even when I was mad I could remember the good things. That’s love for me. Not everything he is doing right now. I will read those letters each and every night till I read them without crying, till I read them without a heartache. And it hurts to see that he tried to tear them how could he ever do that ? Even if it hurts, that’s good to remember how much he used to love and how much I used to love and that I’m gone now, I left and it’s because of him.
Lucky
If you think you’re lost, and if you’ve walked away when you had a chance to stay, if you did something wrong when you should have done the right, if you’ve shut your mouth when you were supposed to be talking, if you lied when you should have told the truth, if you decided to let go when you should have held on, when you realize this: move, take an action, do the right things say the right words, hold on, make a change, have faith in yourself and the one you love, be hopeful, wish the best, be thankful that you have the one you love beside you unharmed, alive, loves you, waiting for you, searching for you, be thankful that everything is okay ! You’re okay ! You’re not ill or have a disease that’s killing you slowly, be thankful to be where you’re, cause there’re people in this world who didn’t get the chance to see her newly born child cause maybe she passed away or the baby passed away ! Be thankful that you still have a chance to make everything just fine !
#Lucky #Motivation #APushForward #FightForWhatYouWant #Breathe #Love #Life #LessonToLearn
The Past
Time is the mystery of our world, but being a mystery doesn’t mean you can’t control it. You can have the time of your life or watch it pass around you. With time everything can change , you can forget something that you thought it was unforgettable , you can remember every single detail of a second. There’s time passed , and there’s time coming . There’s past , and there’s future. When you’re unhappy you think of your past as if you’re trapped in it , and look at your future as if it isn’t coming. But just so you know , maybe you can’t replay a second or change your past, or stop a happy moment, doesn’t mean you can’t have a better time, or be happier than you were in that moment, or have this moment relived over and over again , that doesn’t mean you can’t change your future, or hold on to the best memories or the worst so you don’t do it again. Time is a mystery so are you, don’t watch it as it flies away , but spread you wings and fly with it. If 2011 was miserable we made it that way, if we’re afraid of 2012 it will come anyway so have the guts to face your fears and change the world or watch it as it walks away from you taking faith and hope with it far away where just creative, bolds, and fighters are willing to search for it !
Perfection
They say that perfection doesn’t exist on earth, I believe so; I believed so, but then I think of all the times, the good ones, the good memories, the good friends actually the best ones, and the unforgettable days. The moment when there’s a laugh coming from the heart with tears and stomachache, and sometimes even headache cause of a really hard laugh, a powerful one, a real one. The moment when there’s a tear of pride and happiness. The moment when you feel loved and precious. The moment when the one you love hold you so tight and you feel goose bumps, even when they just look at you as if they see their wife/husband, as if they see their future in you and every step of the way. The moment when you feel the warmth of your mother’s arms around you. The moment when you find that you’re surrounded by the best people on the face of earth. The moment when you’re sure that you have touched someone’s heart with just words or actions. The moment when you have your BEST FRIENDS celebrating your day with you. The moment when you find yourself surrounded by all the people you LOVE. The moment when you find your sibling is ready to protect you with his/her life. The moment you see your dad looking at you as if he sees himself through you. You look at all these moments and see that you forget about all the things, the bad ones in this world, and just live those moments. Just for a second, you feel that your life has reached perfection.
#Perfection #Life #Love #TBT
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